RIP Windy

Yesterday I lost my best friend Windy. I went out to the stable and found him collapsed, the trauma of a prolapse was over but he still had a very faint heart beat. I was grateful that I could see that there was nothing I could do but sad that he had to go through the difficulties alone. The pain and fear of dying is a lonely time for every living thing. I didn't run for the vet or call anyone, I just sat with him for the next four hours. I heard that when you're dying you can only bare the gentlest of touch so I only put Magic's rug over his own to keep him warm. I cleared his chakras with my crystals and stroked his legs and neck asking to bring his soul back into his body, where it had been lost in the trauma. Then I set about setting his spirit free. I asked him what other animal energy guides he needed, if any, for his transition and he asked for the tiger, the crow, the rabbit, the brown bear and the hippo in turn.

I can't really bring myself to talk to anyone at the moment. Everyone loved Windy, knows how much he means to me and how he was my number one support and me his. Everyone reminds me of different amazing times we shared. I have thought of the best ever cross country ride and competition, how he saved our lives on a bad bend, our favourite dressage sheet comment : 'great synergy between horse and rider', the massive advantage of getting to do my road safety qualifications on him as we must have been out 500 hundred times beforehand. The years I rode him in a head collar and me with no hat just to establish that trust pays off and the bit was no longer necessary. The adventure of getting a friend to steal him out of the yard I'd been working in, when I was off injured, and then hitching him up to my car and driving to Valentia island for a couple of weeks. Cantering around the hills in Suffolk when I took him back to England with me for a year. Riding him in arena's at midnight after work. Most special of all were the hours of standing around with him in umpteen stables and fields, just communing.

God I loved that horse and I love everyone else I have known for helping me with him all this time. He was in brilliant order right until the end and I was going to even ride him on Sunday in the sun but in the end just gave him a little massage before I went to work and did his stable. I think he was content as he was at home and so was I and his new little companion Magic and a big massive bale of good hay and a comfy bed and his own stable. He was 24 nearly 25 and I had him from when he was 8 years old. Since the recession and the horse meat crisis, I have cleared more than 80,000 horses, abused, abandoned and killed. Windy gave something amazing and healing to that work. I will miss him with all my heart x x x

How to grow up, if you forgot to initially!

There is a childish tendency to abuse animals, people and the environment. Its a competitiveness that is encouraged by our society, which wants one's children to thrive and outshine the light  of others. The less youngsters that succeed, the greater slice of the pie for you and yours. The adult dynamics that we are supposed to grow into are friendships and communication.

Also when we are young we are taught to destroy each other's dreams and potential with elaborate justifications for naysaying and begrudgery. As we grow up, we were supposed to learn to release what is destructive and self destructive and prepare to live a new life. A life that we chose and support others in that too.

Also in early life, we learned about conditional love. Even for kindness we expected to be reciprocated, let alone a commitment of solid hard work. It was always an exchange. At some point we supposed to become secure enough in ourselves to provide strength to others in crisis, with no expectation of reward.

As children we were innocent and enjoyed a special connection with Nature. It was awesome, it was magical. We were supposed to take our place in the world and represent that natural beauty with reverence. Instead, we let school and society say that we were all poor specimens! and developed an inability to defend ourselves against any negativity. Most people can barely care for themselves let alone revere the beauty of nature.

Instead of falsifying information to pass exams, cover up bad practice at work and get away with as much as possible, we were supposed to grow into curious, awake people, passionate about the truth and excited by our powers of intuition.

We have made negative judgements about the physical world. Not too much sex, not with the wrong person, not too much money, not the indignity of too little, not too much food but not too fussy either. The judgements have piled up. You are feeling better or worse, more right or more guilty, more angry, more upset than you were an hour ago. We weren't supposed to entrench ourselves in judgement of ourselves and others. We are to dedicate our time to a loftier goal. Do everything that lifts our spirits and those of any nearby life forms.

We started life dependent and we never moved on. So often, we believe what we're told and we do what we're told. We were supposed to grow into resourceful people and trust our own authority in all matters.

All through life there have been private agendas. People call it getting their needs met and getting their bills paid. I can confirm that there is a larger agenda than that at hand. We're on the planet, especially at this time, to realize our vast creative capacity. We can share a great agenda of compassionate democratic governance, for example and attract an epic positive realization of that shared idea.

Many shut themselves off in their houses and try not to think about what is happening for others. Others get lost out in the world, keeping busy. We are supposed to learn how to keep our integrity intact, our wits about us, our compassion still active, our loyalty to our soul and life in general.

So let us be pioneers. There is no need to stay angry in order to stay motivated. Right here, right now is our physical life and our one chance to grow up and create something unprecedented and good.

Life is important, give up anything that you currently do that harms another living thing. Meat, dairy, eggs, leather, chemicals, cosmetics, medicines and yes, if they're part of your job, start looking around asap for a new one. A better job, a job where you can go with your head held high and a smile on your face.  

A wonderful October 2014 in Pictures

First Harmony Hall Organic Tofu

                      Spelt Pancakes and Fried Tofu breakfast

                           Magic's First Day at Harmony Hall

                          Measuring up for a Geodome

                          Hook Head Farewell to My WWOOFERS
                                                        (Organic Farm Volunteers)

Visit Home to the best Mum and Dad

(Jonah in the background)

Horticulture - Fetac Level 5 assignments in progress!

        In one of my October blogs and on one of my radio programmes too, I cleared that horrendous plan to kill badgers in England where they had already ordered 25,000 badger body bags…and so, brilliantly, when I visited England and asked about it, it hadn't happen! This is the nature of energy clearing. When we learn how to pay attention we can divert all sorts of harm from ourselves and others!